As I was walking down the road through town to get to the internet cafe, I was struck again by the thought "I'm in India." Of course, I know I'm in India, but I guess I feel like I'm really here. The first few weeks are novel and you just feel like a visitor. But I've been here now for six weeks so that visitor feeling has worn off and I feel more "in place" I guess.
I must confess, for a couple weeks I was not overly happy about being here. I didn't dislike it, but I was at best just tolerating things. But I'm past that now and really enjoying both India and my teammates and the program. I have to say I'm glad God led me to do a DTS. He's been doing great things in my heart, just pouring out His love and helping me to feel secure just as I am; that His love is unconditional and that I can rely on Him to sustain me in my difficult moments.
And I really appreciate my teammates and the staff. They are a fun, generous bunch and have been very kind and encouraging to me.
Last week I had some difficult moments, feeling useless and hopeless about the future and God was able to show me how I've been relying on my own feelings instead of His word. I had a good cry and a good talk with one of the staff and spent time talking with God and I really received encouragement from Him about my future. My future has felt like a bit of a blank but I have some ideas percolating in my brain now and I'm so thankful that God has helped me with this. But it's not so much that I have ideas for what to do after the DTS but that I'm growing more sure of God's love for me and that He does have good plans for me. I've always believed that in my head but it didn't transfer so well to my heart. I'm sure some of you reading this know what that's like!
Anyway, we have a couple presentations of drama and music to do at a couple churches tomorrow and then next week I believe our lectures will be on ministry to Muslim's.
Don't know if I mentioned but I've seen a few elephant's by now! And a chipmunk in a banana tree!
4 comments:
Ooooh Elephants! Any chance of you posting some pictures? Here or facebook....I don't care. I'd just like to see a little of what your eyes are seeing.
Lots of prayers and love for you. I'm so happy to hear more about your adventure with God. :D {{{HUG}}}
hey... may God continue to bless you... warm smiloe.... soak in the sceanery during these times of more epacefullness.... soak up the smells, the markets?, the people... security in God... wow... one of the most foundational things all of us really ultimately long for, but often forget to actually ask for/ cling to.... thanks for reminding us of it via your experience
Amy,
thanks for the letter - I need an address though, so I can write you back.
Linda
I'm missing you today. Please post again soon. :)
{{{HUG}}}
xw
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