His Wonders

Yesterday we were greeted with beautiful hoarfrost decorating every tree twig - a real treat - one of my favourite things about winter. Today we got about 6 inches of snow which made driving extra fun what with the spinning tires and fender benders. I managed to get out and around without any mishaps!

I've been sick all week with a cold. Not so bad I've had to miss work but enough that I've not been out walking - just don't have the energy.

I only have four more weeks at Canoe Club and then I'm off for March. I plan to do some visiting out of town and to hammer down on the the physical prep. That walk down to the perimeter and back must be accomplished by March 31!

I have been enjoying several weeks of close fellowship with the Lord. He has been impressing on me the need to accept myself for who I am. To serve Him in the way that He made me, not get hung up thinking I need to do things that I'm just not cut out for. Ever since I was a young girl I wanted the gift of evangelism. I've always wanted to be a good verbal witness for Jesus and always felt bad that I wasn't too good at it. I can see now that, although witnessing is something that all Christians can do to some degree or another, it is not my spritual gift and I don't need to beat myself up that I'm not strong in that area. I'm better at writing and I can be a witness for Jesus in that way. I still pray for God to give me opportunities to speak for Him. But I'm trying not to put so much pressure on myself in that.

One of the things I like best about Jesus is His ability to cure me of my hangups. I used to hate myself. I thought I was a mistake. Really. And now, after so many years of His ministrations to me I can truly say that I love myself. I can see now, finally, that He has given me a lovely personality and many gifts. He has crafted something beautiful and worthwhile in me and has freed me from my blindness to that. I'm so sorry that I ever despised His handiwork. God doesn't make junk - humans make junk and I made junk of myself for many years. I am so thankful that He has opened my eyes to His wonders in Creation - of the world and of me.